Tina mcf
19 November 2008 @ 07:41 pm
Howdy!  
So, I thought it was about time I get a new journal. I'm not sure what its gonna be for yet.. Just randomness for Halftone visitors i guess. Oh well.

Where my name came from? Artistique, French for Artist... only theres a community/icon-er with that name already. Didn't feel like having to come up with a whole new name, i just added the A & E. Clever, I know. :p

The layout, I made my self. It features Heath Ledger as the Joker..

I didn't want one that id use for 50billion communities. I wanted a whole different name that i normally use online, due to old FORMER friends. I don't want drama.

I'm not gonna make it Friends Only, either, because it'll be linked on Halftone.. you wanna add me, just talk to me first.. I just wanna know who's looking at my stuff, okie? No stupid rules or anything.. just comment & chat a little. Can't be too hard, can it?
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Tina mcf
05 November 2008 @ 09:09 pm
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Tina mcf
05 November 2008 @ 09:09 pm
Museless..  
2 offices, and 3 hours later at 9am this morning... She was forced out via police. Dad went with her.
 
 
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Tina mcf
03 November 2008 @ 04:12 am
Museless..  
I bought this shirt at my work... even in my size it was too baggy.. damn baggy biker stuff!

So i decided to cut it, after having fun with an a7x shirt i did. I wear it a lot at  my store when I'm at the mall, so customers always ask me about it.

it says "dead men tell no tales"

ignore the pic, i hate my camera. lol

( you're gassy! )
 
 
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Tina mcf
01 October 2008 @ 11:08 pm
Museless..  
So today wouldve been my late best freinds Bday. She would've been about 23.

What happens? My close friend via online but so what? decides she doesnt wanna come on to talk to me anymore. Way to pick a great day to do that, wile im going throuhg all this parental stuff.

I'm so tired of crap. I can't seem to hold a friend. It always fucks up on me. I throught friends are there for you no matter what. Apparently only when it effects them, so I've been taught. But if they get nothing out of it, then its not worth it.

Friendship  is supposed to be 2 ways. you put in time for the other person as well, even if it doesnt effect you. Just be there for them, its not that hard. Real friends put aside personal issues to help if its needed. Real friends dont help you out only if  they see something in it for them as well. or if its in their interest.

I'm tired of being there for everyone but i get fucked up the ass. I dont ask questions or make rules when someone needs my help. I help them. Wether or not it benefits me. Is it too much asking the same thing in return?

I'm tired of this crap at home going on, im tired of friend problems, im tired of not having work... Applied at 2 job places, had an interview atone of them, the other place was offerd to me, but still no word back.

I did get re intouch with an old close friend from school this week, but thats only been lasting a couple days.
 
 
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Tina mcf
15 September 2008 @ 07:28 pm
Museless..  
Shit.

My domain just expired... is there anyoen who would be willing to buy the name for me so i dont loose it? It's all I have for art...
 
 
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Tina mcf
05 September 2008 @ 07:30 pm
Down by the big crap hole.  
Well.. Things aren't that much better... I still don't know whats going on with dad.. that woman is still here. Hopefully gone by the end of the month.

I haven't gotten a job yet still... Almost, but not yet. Sick of being shot down due to experiance, meanwile they advertise that their willing to train.

Thank GOD I have the HANSON concert to look forward to next Wed. Yet I still cant get to use any of the fanclub goodies, to get back stage and get a drawing signed.. something I've wanted to do for 14 years..I wanted to pass along something to the guys that belonged to a late friend that was afan of them.. we met through their music. But, because I have no luck with work, so I cant pay the 60$ a YEAR, and even if I did, I don't have a credit card.. Unless someone pays for me, theres no way.. It would just make the rest of this crap going on feel alittle beter... if i got one thing to go right.

My dad pissed me off. He said I could use his camera... Then he said I can't and that theres something wrong with it.. Then I find him and his friend using the stupid thing. Despite having my own now, from my aunt, isnt the issue.

PS: Changed my LJ layout.. check it out.
 
 
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Tina mcf
14 August 2008 @ 12:31 am
Museless..  
I seriously think they're splitting up because of this.

I don't know whats going to happen now. Neither does my mom. she  gave dad an altematum. Seems like hes leaving because of this other woman. Try to put the blame on mom saying shes pushing him away and everything. Its a 2 way street pal.

So, now, I don't know what to do. Half the time I want to quit art all together, because of him. Othertimes, it's all I want to do to distract myself. I just feel like If I draw its cause he taught me.

I've never felt so alone, upset, or confused.

the other day on the buss to my job interview, I had 3 strangers ask me if I was ok.
 
 
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Tina mcf
23 July 2008 @ 11:30 pm
Museless..  

Sorry I havent been around, penpals,  i'm just going through  major shit right now

1. family drama that could result ina divorce if its not resolved correctly...
2. family friend is dying..
3. i still have no damn job cos i have to wait till we get our new phone number..

so things have been alittle nuts for me..

on the bright side... I get to see Hanson sept 10.. after 8 yrs. This time meeting them..

 
 
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Tina mcf
06 July 2008 @ 10:28 pm
Museless..  

so... I'm no longer a cashier.

I wasnt fast enough with the change, because i graduated in 2003, and haven't done much like that since. So I was rusty. u expect me to remember it all, + codes, + instructions, in 3 days with less then 8 hour shifts?

way to make me feel like a moron, when they knew there was crap going on at home a little too.

 
 
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Tina mcf
02 July 2008 @ 11:28 pm
Museless..  
things are saner now.

apparently she cornerd him emotionally, and it got to the point whre he couldnt back out before she got here, and it just spirald outta countroll.

at least everyone is calm.

he's not leaving.

shes getting everythign together for her trip back home, so when her items come here on friday (confirmed.) then all we have to do is send it back, and shes gone.

dad realizes that he said something stupid but isnt sure exacly what he said. he knows most of it is his fault, but he understands hes a victim as well. he feels horrible about it, and swears he'll make up for it. hes been talking nonstop to mom about the whole thing and staying in their room.

so im slightly more calmer now.

I'm just gonna have to tell work that im slightly out of it, because of family crap.

I'm only being nice to her and chatting, because i knew her through dad... only i idnt know the full details till tonite. I'm just being calm and polite to keep the situation under controll. and so far its been working.

could be the weather cooling down too.
 
 
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Tina mcf
02 July 2008 @ 08:37 pm
Museless..  
so basically... she cornerd him emotionally, so much, that by the time he realized she ws coming here the next day, it was too late, and he couldnt back out. beyond emberassed, guilty & upset. I don't know what moms feeling. I'm sick to my stomach. I gota get up at fuckin 6am on friday and start a whole new position wich is stress full enough.

I felt like running out last night.
 
 
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Tina mcf
02 July 2008 @ 02:48 pm
Museless..  
Still don't know whats going on..
 
 
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Tina mcf
02 July 2008 @ 03:43 am
Museless..  
he says hes not leaving.. its 4am and his friend is still bitching.

Im sick to my stomach. worried about mom, and i dont know whats happening. this friend is stuck here till friday till her shit comes, and i got no where to go to get outta the house for a wile for 2 days. ive only got 40$ to my name.

i wanna know the full story. but no ones giving it to me. shes saying one thing, hes saying another, im obliged to believe him more being my dad.

im tired as fuck because ive had barely any sleep the night before. I cant sleep now because im upset. trying to watch tv but i cant. I have to get up for my new position at work at 6am on friday & saturday. I have to memorize the popular products codes as much as i can before friday,but i wont get that chance.

i have no one to turn to here. no one to talk to.  no one to spend the day with just to get out.

im sick... hot.. confused.. miserable.. upset...


hes allways been like almost a role modle to me. we're very identical. same interstes  & personalities.. now... I don't know. I lost major trust untill i know what the fuck is going on. and I wont know anything till friday when she leaves.
 
 
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Tina mcf
01 July 2008 @ 10:37 pm
Museless..  
for the past 23 years ive looked up to my dad. for his personality & his artistic creativity. Now? he's in a whole other lite to me.

outta nowhere, he takes off to vancouver, to meet his net friend liz.

Now, the thing about my dad is.. when he has a heart to heart with you, he can get almost poetically emotional... and in one of their convos he must've said somethng to her that led her in a different direction.

Now, shes over here. she showed up, expecting him to be divorced outta nowhere. hes been with my mom for 26 years. loves her to bits. we all know it. but this friend, insists that she loves him and whatnot. and that he lied to her. she said hes been sayin how hes leaving us & whatnot.

If hes depressed and had a few drinks in him, yeah..he says shit like that on bad days... but its never serious. but in email, its hard to tell.

thing is too, he doesnt have that many close friends, and his close friend he does have is dying of MS.

so now... she shows up expecting to move in or start so mething up... hes emberassed and confused as fuck. my mom wont come outta her room till shes gone, she scared and sick from it all. So am i.

him & i have always had a relationship that goes well beyond father/daughter. more of almost a mentor/sucessor kind of thing. now, its a whole different light to me.

I dont know what my parents outcome will be now, and im scared shitless. 23yrs and ive never seen anything like this. 
 
 
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Tina mcf
12 June 2008 @ 08:02 pm
Penpals!!  
Guys I'm so sorry I haven't written back yet... I just got moved into a different department at work, after spending 2 weeks in the Deli... Now I have to start all over again in Cashier.. So I haven't had the chance to mail anything yet... I haven't worked all week this week, and I only get payed for 2 days.. and then next week I won't work at all either.. I find out my hours for the following week.. I'll send stuff soon, I promise! I haven't forgotten you!
 
 
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Tina mcf
02 June 2008 @ 10:09 pm
Lunchroom Artist  

So apparently everyone at Extra Foods now knows I'm an artist. hehe.

Its been fun there so far. they really trust me. I'm only working 2 days this week, because of a huge sale goin on, and they wanna take the time to train me, not rush me, wich is nice. I don't wanna be all of a sudden dumped into a crazy week too early.

I draw during lunch, so it might take me a little longer to upload. hehe. I only get a half hour lunch after all, but everyone knows i'm the artist.. apparently its all over the staff. ;P

I ran into my grade 6 teacher wile I was working, and he still remembers me.. I told him to come by PM Day on Saturday if i go.. Depends on the weather. Last week they said its gonna be sunny, this week they say its gonna rain.. now i dunno whats going on for sat.

Kinda hard to take ur artwork in rain, innit.. not to mention, the crowd wont be as big.

So my drawings have suffered a couple catastrophes at work.. First.. Ice tea in my bag spilt, but luckily i caught it quick enough and stopped it from going onto the pages.. it ended up just on the edges.. lol. Then one of the back of the pages got something sticky on it, and i spilt coffee on one drawing, but luckily only in an area that had to be heavily shaded anyway.

 
 
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Tina mcf
29 May 2008 @ 11:10 pm
...ouch...ouch...ouch...ouch...  
so.. I surived the 3 day curse, so far, at Extra Foods. No incedents.. only burnt myself twice on the rotisary. The only thing I have a trouble with, is putting the chickens on faster.. but their ungodly patient. tomorrow is the moment of truth, wether or not i make it this week. hehe.

I only work 2 days next week, because they have a sale next week going on, and me being there is one person too many, and im alittle too slow at the moment for rael busy days.. but, he said its only a temporary thing, since my trainer is 6mo. pregnant, their trying to train me really good by the end of aug, when shes due, so hopefully i can take over her hours for a year... every 500hours we get a small raise.

so wile i was working.. my aunt w. my grandma, came by to say hi, and then lateron my dad showed up to say hi, when he got a phone card. hehe. an old teacher of mine showed up too, and rememberd me. hehe. And no, [info]thisisthetake, not the one that reminds me of Proff. Lupin.

I opened a bank account today too after work. finally. heh.

I love it too cos my hours dont get much earlier then 10am, and much later then 6-7pm. That'll pretty much be most of my hours, because the Deli is closed at 6.

I dont mind it there though... and only getting 2 days next week is fine... i can sleep and re energize. hehe.

oh.. and i got my freebie copy of the Supernatural Season 2 Companion, in the mail today from Titan. Can't wait to read it... imma take it to work tomorrow. ;) hate me yet [info]ckll?

by the way... to the penpals?... letters wil probably be mailed next week! i think my dad was gonna mail stuff anyway. =)
 
 
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Tina mcf
28 May 2008 @ 11:44 pm
Museless..  

extra foods job is going really good.. i only need the buss there, i get off at 6, so i can get picked up.. i don't start till 11. nice eh?.. its 5 mins by buss.

no discount, thanks to idiot former employees that abused it.. no idea if i have benifits, but i get payed at the end of every week! roughly 200-300$. good enough for me.

i've been getting the hang of things really easy.. its just alittle hard having to pick up everything thats heavy right now, because my trainer is 6mo. pregnant. im not really even that sore or tired from it though..

thank god the dress code is pretty lenient.. so i can stil get the dye i wanna get done on my hair.. cos im in a hairnet anyway, so its not like they'll see.

by the way i work in the Deli. (extrafoods.ca - Country: Canada, City: Maple Ridge, Store: Extra Foods.) and thats where i work. ;)

 
 
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Tina mcf
26 May 2008 @ 12:09 am
It's my bday and ill cry if i want to! :P  
I don't knwo why im being kinda snubbed by [info]bday_packages meanwile im active on it.. meh

i spent the day shopping on sat for my bday.. got 220$ worht of clothes n stuff :p

we had a psycotic buss driver that made me feel like i was in the car with bo duke. we got there in half the time. hehe
 
 
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